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It shrunk again!!?!?!

Will I ever hear the sound of someone calling me momma? It seems today like it will never happen. This is true life torture. If I can't grow a uterus then there is no way it will ever happen. Today's lining check didn't go well - again. I don't know what is going on. I have incredible endo pains today. I did drink this weekend because it was my birthday but no more. Not one single drop. It just goes to show me that I have to be perfect to make this work - it seems like all I can do is be perfect. What else can I change? I've changed so much. I'll do daily yoga, no drinking, no carbs, Pom juice no stress. It is so not fair.

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