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A Talisman Appears


I'd been thinking about wanting to buy something representative of this journey. Something kind of like a talisman that I could look at or wear that would remind me of where I'd like to be with a child someday. I found this and I originally paused to look at it because it is elephants and they are my favorite animal. But then when I looked further I realized the image spoke to me of a mamma going it alone with her little one. There it was! My talisman. I will hang it in my stairwell next to my bedroom so that at night when I go up to bed I see it and I fall asleep ready to manifest making my SMC dream come true.

On a side note... I was in Toys R Us shopping for Christmas and I wandered over to the Baby's R Us part of the store. Every other time I've gone there in the past I dread it, I am riddled with anxiety and utterly uncomfortable when shopping for other people's little ones. I think "What am I doing here? I don't have a bloody clue about any of this stuff! And I don't want to know..." I would wander aimlessly feeling incredibly out of place, like I just didn't belong there because I wasn't a mom. But that changed the other night. I walked through thinking how amazing it will be that I will be able to shop there for my own little one hopefully one day.

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  1. R23 December 2011 at 14:43

    Hi! Found the link to your blog on the SMC Forum. Welcome to the club! I'm currently 7.5 weeks pregnant. Decided to become an SMC in July/August, was originally going to start ttc in January, then moved it back to November... and it worked on the first try! Best of luck as you move down the path towards motherhood! :)

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  2. Ali26 December 2011 at 09:59

    Love this image! I'm also a big fan of elephants, not only are they just really beautiful creatures, but I respect their instincts to nurture and ability to remember. Good luck on your journey, you will discovery that the SMC community is very supportive and informative!

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