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Universe... this is what you've got?

I am a strong believer in the "Universe". My mantra is often.. ok Universe I know you've got my back, so show me what you've got. Well, this month U is shaking me to the core. I have had a month of pure hell at my new job. A job I didn't really want, but no one else called and I had an in with my old boss. I'm up at 5:30 am out the door by 7 and home by 6:30 or 7. I'm completely drained of all brain power and utterly exhausted. The thought of coming home to a 1 year old is enough to make me want to jump in the tub with a toaster!  My entire being is screaming... thank Gawd you don't have a child at home right now!!!

I am not very well versed in the school of "suck it up". I live my life by the adage that we are not put on this earth to suffer. If I'm not happy, I change it. And it has always worked out for me. I am suffering now and I don't like it one little bit. I would hate it if I had a child at home to also make suffer. But knowing what I do about the U and my relationship as the U as my advisor I know exactly what this is... This is the U saying to me.... Oh yeah... you want to have a baby on your own hey? With no one to support you? You the one who doesn't know how to accept other people's help? OK... let's see how you deal with this... Stress and multitasking like you've never expreienced before. Turns out I'm failing miserably :(

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  1. sassy statistician31 January 2012 at 22:16

    hang in there -- it sounds like the U is nudging you a bit. I found myself stressed and impatient with my cat this morning, thinking -- "is this what I will be like with a kid when I'm in a hurry?"

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