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Making Choices

Lately, it seems that every choice I make is wheiged on the "future baby" plan. I wallked into a store that had 50-70% off everything and I still didn't want to spend my now very valuable planning money. I have a dresser taking up a lot of room in my basement that I won't throw out because if I paint it white it can be the "future baby's" furniture. So... in keeping with planning for "future baby" - which I really need to find a better name for... I bought a 12 week old Shi-poo female puppy as a boxing day gift! I'd been considering this idea for a while. Mostly because I felt my dog D could use a buddy to keep him young and busy and not always rely on me for his entertainement. And because he'll need someone other than me when baby comes.

I finnally took the plunge because I was talking with my brother-in-law who just had a baby 6 weeks ago - about a year ago they added a puppy to the family, they already had one senior dog - and he said it was the best thing they ever did.

Isn't this "nature's" way of preparing you for motherhood anyway? Once you have a child your thoughts are first and foremost for them and their livlihood right? So I continue to walk the path and make choices to further place each brick in the road to mommyhood.
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