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Tired... Oh so Tired

I felt proud of all the work I did the past few days. Monday was a very rough start. I just woke up feeling lost and in despair again. All I wanted to do was sit in bed and binge watch a mindless TV show. But I trudged on.

I gave up peeing on ovulation sticks this morning. It seems I have missed my window. I can tell by the CM that I likely ovulated 5 days ago. So it hit me yesterday that I have to go and see a naturopath to get my cycle regular. Enough of this! My cycle average is 40 days. That's just crazy. And it has been everything from 28 - 46 days in the past 6 months. So it is time to seek other help.

So today I'm grateful for:
- making an appointment with the Naturopath
- connecting with my bookkeepr
- getting this week's groceries
- going to the gym last night
- making it to support group on Monday night
- going to my first singing group on Monday


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